Work changes

The girl who was handling the whole recruitment of nurses at my job just got up and left this afternoon.  What is it with the jobs that I end up in where people just walk out?  I didn't really expect this kind of lack of professionalism in the workplace.  A part of me is worried about her though.  What if something is wrong?  I found her on Facebook and sent her a message but I don't know if she'll respond.  I'm also slightly anxious about what's to come as I was brought in to support her.  Something tells me I'm going to be taking on more of her roles which would be okay if I had a better idea what I was doing and she didn't delete all of her e-mails prior to leaving.  

Needless to say, this afternoon was super stressful.  Thank goodness I didn't need to go into work tonight too.   I was all flustered by the end of the afternoon.  I came home and put myself under my headphones and disappeared which was an interesting sign.  It's what I always did when I felt overwhelmed by something.  It's what I used to do anyway before the panic attacks came on but I felt okay with it today.  So yeah, I'm nervous and reluctant and I don't know.  I want to be able to step up and impress but I'm also afraid of disappointing.  I'm afraid that my boss might expect more than I have the knowledge and ability to deliver.   There are a lot of feelings flowing through me right now and I don't want to deal with them.  

In fact, I'm going to stop writing now.  Dave is going to show me something on excel that I can hopefully use tomorrow to get one of my projects done more quickly.