New blog

Hello all,

I'd like to invite you all to my new blog: A Mind Serenade.  From now on I will be writing there so please feel free start following me.  Thank you to following me here for the past two years.  I can't tell you how much it means to me.

<3 Me

Saying Goodbye to this journal

I know it's only been a couple of days since I wrote the post about discontinuing this blog and starting a private online journal instead but I think it is something that I want to do.  No one has commented on anything I've posted here for a while so I'm not sure if people (aside from my mother, Dave, and Jamie) are even still reading it.  Honestly, I totally get it if people have decided to stop reading this.  Most of what I write is utter crap and very self centered.  I don't say much that's worth reading so having only three readers makes sense.  What doesn't make sense is continuing to write a public blog that only has three readers especially if there are times that I feel like I can't write about what's on my mind because it's either too personal or about someone else.  

A part of me really just wants to write for myself and then I can do what I used to do when I kept a written journal and show it to people when they ask about what's going on.  Sometimes I do find it easy to communicate in writing rather than talking so it would be easy to just have them read what I wrote rather than try to talk about it.  Sure, it would mean that I would have to excuse myself to the bathroom or try to busy myself doing something while they read it and collected their thoughts but it worked.  With an online journal, I could password protect the entries.  Like Jamie or Alli, instead of posting everyday I would post occasionally.  My friends and family would get the occasional better written post rather than horribly written posts everyday.  

I guess my biggest fear is that people will take it the wrong way but I suppose it is my choice.  It's been a wonderful two years writing here but you can't do something forever and I think it's time to make a change.  I love you all.  Thank you for spending all the time that you already have reading this and I will be posting the new journal link sometime soon.  

Nana

Got some difficult news to swallow tonight when my mother called to tell me that my nana's house got broken into last night.  She' okay, thank God.  Still it was 9pm and she was saying her rosary when she saw two men standing outside her bedroom window.  She immediately pressed her lifeline and started screaming once she heard them in her kitchen.  I can't imagine how scared she must have been.  She's got spunk though and luckily her screams caused them to run away.   I'm still not sure why at 90 years old she insists on staying at her home alone but even now she wants to go back once the doors and windows are fixed and the alarmed installed.  My hope is that my father, my aunt, and my uncle can talk her out of it.

Her strength has always astounded me.  Sure, she's gotten a bit cantankerous in her old age but I've always admired her.  Her father had a bit of an alcohol problem when she was a child causing her mother to go to work when she was only nine.  This left her cooking and cleaning and taking care of her younger brother before the age of ten.  She insisted on driving at the age of sixteen despite it being completely unheard of at that time and the man would all make fun of her.  Much later she was diagnosed with a brain tumor, had surgery, and lost all function on one side her body which she had to learn to regain.  Not to mention how she cared for my grandfather for at least 7 years after his stroke.   That strength and pride that kept her going for so long is now what makes her so stubborn about leaving her home.

I hate that this happened to her and I am so grateful that she is okay.

Writing

There was a lot of goofing around today once Dabey got home from work.  And I'm still awake whereas this time last night, I was practically in tears because I was so miserable.  Must mean that I'm feeling a bit better. Actually this morning I woke up feeling like a new person. Still, the first thing I did was schedule an appointment with the Ear, Nose, and Throat doctor for January 28th.  This is going to sound weird but I'm looking forward to meeting with her.  I just hope she doesn't bring me into emergency surgery like she did when she saw my cousin.  Then again, my cousin says it was the best thing that ever happened to her so maybe some emergency surgery is just what I need.  So long as I can make it to class on the 29th; I'm good.

Now that 2013 is here officially and I have begun writing in Investing in Living, I'm seriously considering moving this blog to Wordpress and making it something private. This is primarily a personal journal anyway. Still, because of it's public broadcasting there are times that I can't actually write about what I want. Sometimes, events happen in the lives of my friends that affect me and I want to write about them and their impact on my thoughts and feelings.

After Katie had her baby would be a perfect example. It wasn't my place to announce baby Jude's arrival into the world. Even if I had the ability to set that entry to private, I could have written about baby Jude's influence on my worldviews but I wouldn't be sharing a close friend's big announcement. Obviously, something like that doesn't happen on a daily basis but even those days when I have nothing to say or just end up complaining about nothing ad nauseum. Those kinds of posts are probably better left unread by the world. My friends love me and they tolerate it but should they have to? What do you guys think?

Still not feeling well...

Dave and I are both sick now.  I actually feel better but have had this headache that hasn't gone away and I'm still so congested.  I should have called the doctor but I didn't.  I ended up just going to bed and had some horrible dreams instead.  My whole face just hurts and I'm really regretting not contacting someone who might have helped.  That said, it's doubtful that I could be seen right away anyway.  For that I should go to my regular doctor.  I just don't think it's going to help.  I don't have a fever and will probably just be told that it's allergies and to wait it out.  With Dave being sick too, he's totally off too.  I need to go lie down again.

First Sunrise

Happy first day of the New Year.  Here are some pictures of the first sunrise.  I hope you all had as nice of a beginning at Dave and me.