possiblities

It's 10 o'clock and it feels both early and late at the same time.  I can't decide if this hour should be bedtime and hope to extend my mornings or if I should just embrace the next two hours as part of my regular evenings and do something with them.  I didn't have the talk with the president of the company today nor did I have the discussion with the person who is working on the project that I was shown.  My meeting with the president was moved until tomorrow morning and I think the meeting with the man project guy will be on Friday.

Basically, I'll tell the condensed version rather than the longer story.  Exactly a week ago, my boss made mention of my staying on over the first two weeks of January.  More specifically, she stated, "Don't make any plans for January, I have you for at least the first two weeks."  Then as a casual aside, she mention, "that is if you still want to be here."  As you know, last week about this time, I was having my doubts.  In fact, I was just trying to make it through the day so I could go home and actually think on them and discuss them with Dave when she asked.  Not knowing exactly what I wanted or what to say I said nothing and hoped she'd move on.

She didn't.  She pounced on me actually wanting to know why I was silent and what was wrong.  Again, unsure, I just responded that I had been thinking about it and just hadn't made up my mind yet.   She wanted more than that.  Flustered, I floundered with my words and said a lot of things that didn't come out right and the entire meeting was very uncomfortable.  It ended with her basically throwing me out of her office, calling in our HR person and closing the door.  I spent my lunch venting on the phone with Dave at how unprofessional I thought her reactions were.

The next day, I didn't go in and spent more time thinking about it.  On Friday we sat down and I expressed my concerns that I didn't want to be a permanent temp and that I wanted to look and see what else was out.  Maybe something that I have a bit more interest in or something that has more to do with my degree.  Sure enough, she mentioned the other side of the company.  The Education side. The next thing I knew, it was Monday and I was meeting with one of the main people there and it was definitely more interesting than anything I have encountered before.

Needless to say, I'm not quite so intent on leaving at the moment.  I sense an opportunity is in front of me and I feel like I should see what happens.  Really, I'm not banking on anything.  I'm sort of just letting it happen or not happen.  I don't want to force anything because that never seems to work for me.  So that's that.  I'll keep you posted and maybe even describe it in more detail later.  We'll see.