Contemplation

I'm super tired so I plan to make this post short.  I know I've said that before but I mean it tonight.  Normally I wait for my coworker to leave with me but it was already 11:20 and I thought I was going to fall asleep right there that I just took my chances and walked out alone.  This schedule is not the easiest thing in the whole to accommodate and it's not getting any easier now that the honeymoon period with my new boss seems to be over.  She's become super nit-picky all of a sudden and I think I'm beginning to see why so many found her challenging to work with.  I mean, she's always been demanding but these past two days it's gone beyond that.

Perhaps she's just having a bad week but both days I've left the office wondering if this job is worth it.  Ideally, I would love to stay on long enough for it to be something I could add to a resume but I don't I'm not sure if sticking it out another 2-3 months is really worth it.  There's no job security and as a result her stress level is always stretched to the max.  Plus, if she's getting on my case now about this kind of stuff, I can't imagine it improving and that will only leave me feeling resentful and that would feed her irritation.  She is a wonderful person who really means well but under the pressure of the situation sometimes her overly demanding behavior is downright obnoxious.  Today was the second day I caught myself rolling my eyes at something she was criticizing me about.  I don't do that so to do it two days in a row is saying something.

One of the many things I've learned from my student teaching hell was that if you can't find a way to put out the fire, you should probably leave the building before it burns you alive.  I don't want to end up in that situation again uselessly tossing buckets of water on an inferno.  So far, I've establish a solid relationship with her and I'd like to keep it that way but it won't happen because I won't be able to continue keeping quiet. Like I said, I'd like this to work but I am seriously contemplating writing a letter of resignation where I indicate a two week notice that she can either accept or have me leave upon my handing it to her.  I just want to do it professionally and with a clear head.  Not every situation works and I need to not try and force it.  

With that, I'm going to bed.  I have another day tomorrow so we'll see how that goes.