Tough day today. Really tough. I almost didn't go to Katie and Jared's party. Thankfully I did. I had a good time (despite that Dave and I just got into a huge stupid fight about something that happened during it). Katie and Jared throw some really great parties. They invite great people, create a wonderful vibe, and everyone has a great time. I just can't believe how long it took for me to get there.
Honestly, I slept all day. Literally all day. I went to bed yesterday at 1am when Dave got home, tried to wake up at 9 and couldn't. Slept until noon, still couldn't get out of bed and finally got out of bed around 1:30 in the afternoon. I got on my computer and just felt like I couldn't function. Within the hour I went back to bed and back to sleep waking up only upon Dave's insistence around 5 so we could get ready for the party. Unfortunately this time, I felt like hell.
I had a headache and just wanted to go back to bed. The idea of getting up, getting dressed, going out in the cold, and staying out late seemed overwhelming to me. I developed this awful headache and just felt awful. Finally, when the pain died down and I laid there awake for a bit telling myself that I would totally regret not going. Really, there is no reason at all that it should have been so difficult. I hate these mental issues that have seemed to creep back into my life. I hate the fact that I've done this to myself but being so stupidly curious.
Of course, we had a good time. I knew I was going to but it still took me forever to get there. It was so not cool.
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