Something

Tonight is one of those nights that I don't know what to write about.   My mind quite literally feels blank.  It's one of those evenings when you want to read watch television or a movie.  I'd prefer to take in someone else's thoughts or read someone's story than compose or continue to write my own.  It's just that, at the moment, I feel like I have nothing to say or rather nothing that I would like to discuss. It's difficult for me to put words down on paper at this time.  

I've always known why regular bloggers who actually have a topic to write about and a large following choose to allow others to blog on their topic for them.  It's difficult to have something new and different to write about every single day.  Nevermind, something that is inherently interesting.  I think that's part of the reason why many professional bloggers call it a full time job.  All of the research that must go into cultivating a blog that others would want to read, plus responding to commenting, and for those who actually make money, running their business.  

At some point in the future, I too would like to start a blog with more of a direction or general topic.  This blog is primarily a personal blog with some creative writing sprinkled throughout.   Right now, I'm okay with that.  At the beginning of the year, I gave myself a goal.  I just wanted to write something, anything everyday.  There are times that I get way too caught up with the idea that someone else reads it and I feel the need to write something interesting but that's not why I started this.  I started this just to get into the habit of writing so that when I find that topic or concept, I can run with it without being afraid of not writing just because I'm not in the mood.  

There's something to be said when the man you love looks at you with the sleepiest eyes and asks if you will be joining him and you have to say no because you haven't written yet.  That is something that I would like to limit more as I go forward.  I get that I seem to enjoy writing late at night but it might be more productive to write during the day.  Most days, I'm free during the day so it really makes more sense for me to write then.   I think I really need to start making appointments with myself.  You know, try and write something at the same time everyday.  That will really reinforce the habit of writing something each day.  I've also read that if you choose the same time everyday that you will tend to be more inspired at that time of the day because your mind will be expecting it.   Maybe I'll try that.