After that party, I proceeded to freak out on Dave and explained to him just how uncomfortable being left like that feels. Though he argued it at the time, he understands. He would just choose a third option that I never considered. When he is uncomfortable, he takes out whatever electronic device he has on him and holes himself away from anyone. Tonight when he got separated from me at dinner along with everyone else he knows and can talk to, that was just what he chose to do. We had already mentioned to James that we wanted to sit next to each other but that was brushed aside and that was okay because Dave was still able to talk with Alli whom he knows and is comfortable around. However, when his seat was taken after getting up to go to the bathroom, I knew that changed. Knowing that I was unable to ask anyone to move, I contemplated getting up myself and sitting next to him. I tried to text him to see if he was okay but it was clear that he was annoyed as well and sort of felt like he was just pushed aside.
At that point I just wanted to leave. He was going to be miserable and I was going to be miserable because he had be isolated (however unintentionally) and the only way to rectify it at the time was to cause a scene and that is something I almost always try to avoid. Although, I obviously found his unhappiness to outweigh my unwillingness to cause a scene and I did. As per usual, our irritation at others was taken out on each other and we bickered like small children which lead to the "oh they have to be together" comments to be spoken aloud. So no, we don't have to be together all the time. But Dave came with me tonight to hang out with my friends (some of whom he hardly knows). If I had gone with Jamie or if one of my friends from tonight joined me at a gathering of people they didn't know, I would have caused the same scene because it's unfair for someone to feel isolated and uncomfortable like that. Not everyone can roll with it like I do and I would never expect them to because I know just how much I hate it when it's forced upon me. Thank goodness for Katie's husband who went over and pulled Dave out of the shell he was hiding within. Jared will always be listed in my "Most favorite people" book even if it is just an imaginary one.
Anyway, now that I've gotten that off my chest... Both of us actually had a really good time today. For Alli's birthday we went out to a Roller Derby and it was super loads of fun. I enjoyed seeing Alli and Katie again as we don't see each other nearly enough and despite the loud crowd, we were able to find time to actually discuss some of the things happening in our lives. When we weren't able to talk, we watched the roller derby and attempted to figure out the rules and just enjoyed watching women skate around and hit each other. Finally, as the competition continue we were able to piece together some of things that were happening and by the time the big game started we all seemed to have a pretty general grasp of what was going on. Honestly, while I was watching it I felt like I missed out on participating in such an activity. The whole skating around an area while bumping into others is something I would thoroughly enjoy. I'd consider it now, but I don't know how I feel about trading in my figure skatings to roller skates.
Despite mine and Dave's little tiff at the restaurant and James not having a ticket to the sold out show, I'm pretty sure that everyone including Alli had a good time and that really is the most important thing as it was her birthday celebration. Alli, I apologize for the restaurant and I hope that you can kind of understand where we were coming from. Dave and I had an amazing time tonight and are so happy you came up with the roller derby idea.
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