too tired for a title

Quick post tonight as it is super late because Dave and I have spent the last few hours talking.  I wish I could say it was about wedding stuff but in reality our upcoming wedding is only a small piece of our connection.  Planning the wedding is something that we have to do; it's become a series of small tasks to check off on our to do list.  Decisions must be made when this sort of planning occurs.  Some legitimate action needs to take place and let's be honest both of us would prefer to have a long deep conversation about general things.  These general discussion where no planning or action needs to take place allows us to continue to get to know each other and our individual perspectives on what's surrounding us.  Though I love the feelings of accomplishment after completing a task, it's not the same as what I feel after a long, thoughtful, and insightful conversation with a lover or friend.  Doing things and making decisions gives us a sense of camaraderie and connection but discussing things that mean something deep to you gives us a sense of intimacy.  Both are valuable but... I don't know, I'll assume that you know what I mean without my having to complete that thought.

With all of that said, I did get some things done today.  We paid some bills which is always a good thing and we scheduled a meeting with our officiant.  I tried to call about my dress but the store wasn't open today so I'll try again tomorrow.  Also, I had another therapy appointment which gave me some more things to contemplate and further insights.  Maybe I'll get into that in another post as I've thought about it far too much today.  Finally, I'm most proud of finally going to the local library and getting myself a library card.  I've been meaning to do this for months and I finally just went and did it.  I'm hoping it will help curb my whole book buying issue; even spending $2 on a book that I could otherwise borrow isn't money well spent. While at the library I checked out a few books on planning a wedding ceremony along with others that were an anthology of potential readings.  It wasn't much but it was a little bit.  Creating the calendar with my mother was hugely helpful in keeping me focused and on task.  It makes things manageable and we're getting a little more done with each day.