Schedules

To say that Dave and I had a difficult day would be an understatement.  I can't really get into it now out of respect for him and what's going on.  Again, I'm reminded why a lock feature is a good feature to have because sometimes you do just need to write to yourself.  Before you get concerned, Dave and I are totally fine.  We are healthy and we are in love and we are happy.  What made today difficult actually had nothing to do with our relationship.  We didn't get into a fight or anything like that.   It was more related to something personal for him and although I don't mind blabbering on about all my issues and problems and stresses, it's not my place to discuss his.  In the end, the day just wasn't one of the better ones but we can take solace in the fact that today is now just about over and tomorrow will be a new one.

I had plans to hang out with Katie tomorrow but we had to reschedule until Thursday because I'm a moron and forgot about the appointments I scheduled months ago.  This calendar tool will really is a necessity.  I think I used to avoid it because I hate the idea of "scheduling" time with my friends.  I'm always reminded of that, "oh let me pencil you in" saying because clearly my life is just so busy that I don't have really have time for you.  That's how I've perceived this for a really long time.   That's why I haven't kept a calendar.   It's time to get over that now.  I mean, had I not received the reminder calls I would have missed these appointments and been charged penalties for doing so.  For someone who is so into finances, that's the easiest way to throw money down the drain.  Not to mention the simple fact that at the beginning of the week, Katie was totally cool with either Wednesday or Thursday. If I had the appointments written down in a place I could easily reference them, then I could have just as easily said Thursday and not had to reschedule.

Plus, as much as I hate the idea that I'm "scheduling" time with my friends, I feel that it's an inevitable side effect of getting older.  There's also that whole idea that if I make time for my friends after my job (sorry guys I need to money to live and eat and stuff) then I would actually be scheduling all my other crap around them.  Errands and appointments are necessities unfortunately and we are no longer the relatively carefree college students living with or next door to each other anymore.  We've moved on from that.  They have jobs and lives; so do I.  And that's right now; once you have kids it becomes even more difficult.  Then you find that you literally have to "schedule" time to just be with your husband nevermind anyone else. Schedules aren't bad things, in fact most of us feel better when we have them.  Already, I've benefited from the schedule I made with my mom.  I've kept up my appointments and I've checked off the things I've needed to do and I feel good about it.  When I know what's happening and when, life suddenly becomes a whole lot easier. Who knew?