Busy day off

My word: we really let our apartment get beyond messy.  I spent all day cleaning and the apartment would still be consider very unkempt by any stranger.  Of course, it didn't get like this overnight.  We spent many, many lazy days not doing anything: not doing the dishes, not doing the laundry, not throwing our trash away.  Pathetic, really.   I kept thinking I wanted to do the dishes or do a load of laundry but then I'd get home from work and feel too tired or I'd wake up late and didn't want to spend the hour before work cleaning.   Because we allowed it to get beyond a "manageable" amount, a simple wipe down of the counters or rinsing of a few dishes or one load of laundry wasn't going to cut it.

I was supposed to hang out with Lauren and Jamie today but with Easter being tomorrow and Dave at PAX we agreed to meet next weekend instead.   A huge part of "needing a day for me" was to finally tackle the growing mess that was slowly making me insane.  So today, I got through all the dishes, did 6 loads of laundry, cleaned most of the cluttered trash that accumulated, and did a somewhat thorough cleaning of the bathroom.

In addition, I went to get dinner at my favorite crepe place and tried on some pants at New York and Company.  I've been having a difficult time fitting into my pants.  In fact, only one pair fits comfortably and I kept thinking, "oh I'll lose the weight and they'll fit."  Yeah, yeah I know: it's what everyone says after they've put on a few pounds and their clothing no longer fits.  Sure, I lost the five pounds but I've practically put it all back on since that panic attack.  Really, the panic attack is just an excuse.  Truthfully, the I tried to do too much too quickly.  You can't try to change every aspect of your life all at once.

So, I've ordered pants that will fit and I will try and lose the weight again but this time in a far more slow and organized fashion starting with eating more.  Yeah, seems backwards but I don't eat and when I do I eat everything.  My first change will be eating three times a day.  It can be anything (even fast food) but I need to do it at least three times a day.  I need to get in the habit of eating on a regular basis.  Then, hopefully, I'll be able to reduce portions or create substitutions.  Maybe then, I'll be able to start shedding the pounds.