Unhappy Stupidness

Another night and I'm in a horrible mood again.  For the past thirty minutes I've sat here with enough to say but unable to write any of it.  Seriously, I don't want to do this right now.  I just want to watch my Law and Order on Netflix and read the entries in my Google reader.  Really, I was feeling so much more positive about things until yesterday and even today thing actually went well.  I had another very enlightening therapy session and they came out to work on our apartment issues and though they aren't fixed the guy was really nice about it.  

Honestly, I think I'm just dealing with anxiety.  Just got some news that I wasn't really prepared for (not horrible news and everything is okay but more that it makes me really unhappy) and I'm feeling anxious about what to do.  How do I want to handle this?  Alone?  With friends?  Why does my schedule suck ass?  Why did I not ask more questions earlier when I could've possibly done something to make this feel a lot better now?  No, I do what I always do when it comes to things I don't want to hear or prepare for, I avoid.  Okay, I don't always avoid, sometimes I freak out about something that's not going to happen for a couple of weeks (if it happens at all) but normally in that case I do come up with some sort of back up plan.  Gah, I hate it when my lack of worry screws me and reinforces this need to constantly worry so that I will be prepared when I actually have to deal with whatever it is I'm worrying about.  Anticipating the problem is much worse than dealing with it but clearly I didn't do enough anticipating earlier which is going to make dealing with it this time a whole lot harder. 

::Hmpfh::