Uplift

Okay, I'm not feeling as dissatisfied with life today.  I hate those moods.  The worst part of it is that I know that my life is far from horrible.  In fact, my life is fabulous.  I am truly, truly blessed and have very few worries but knowing that only seems to make it worse when I'm feeling frustrated and depressed.  All it does is make me think, "God, my life is awesome. What the f**k is wrong with me for not appreciating it the way I should?"  There are times when I am feeling on slightly out of sorts when thoughts of the wonderful life I have do make me feel better, then there are other times when I've just gone too far down the depression slide.

Thankfully tonight Dave brought me out to work out again.  I didn't want to go at first.  I was still feeling all blah and out of sorts.  I knew I should go, that I needed to go, that I would probably feel better once it was over but I couldn't get myself there with my mind alone.  Luckily Dave is just as involved and it was nice to have that little extra push off the couch and onto my feet.  I'm glad he did.  I needed that feeling of accomplishment.  I'm so glad I've got him in my life.  He's the best.  I love him so much.