Change

I do not want to write tonight.  I just want to runaway with my husband.  I want to escape from the daily mundane.  I want to be stimulated by a new place.  I want to swim next to waterfalls.  I want to lay on a beach and go swimming in the ocean.  I want to just wake up next to my husband, spend all day with him, be so active that we can all but collapse into bed, and then do it all over again.  Where is this depression and frustration coming from?  I feel like I need a change but I have no clue what to do or where to go.  I'm tired, frustration, bored, irritated, and I'm desperately seeking something else.  I just don't know what it is yet.  I want to change and yet at the same time I don't know what I want to change into or feel ready.