No Batman today after all. Instead we went up to Crane Beach in Ipswich. I never realized just how beautiful of a beach it was before. In truth, I'm not sure if I've ever been to it before today. Dave really liked it too and he normally isn't always so enthusiastic in my daily travel discoveries. I'm really grateful for today. It was a wonderful day for Dave and me. Just us. I feel like it's been a while since the two of us just went on an excursion like we used to do all the time. We talked a lot as we walked up and down the beach and later at the Clam Box restaurant while we dined on fried fish, chicken, and scallops. More than that, our talks were about what we wanted to do in the future and how to handle our present than griping about our jobs and daily stresses. I wish we didn't have to go back to work tomorrow, it was so nice to have the day. Still, we got today. Can't have it everyday.
I'm not a video game girl. More than that the majority of my friends aren't video game girls. Just one really but I've been contemplating getting into it more seriously. Almost every night Dave, Feissal, Kevin, Josh, and sometimes Amanda all jump online and play together. Of course they talk about other things sometimes too and even though they don't get a chance to hang out physically together they do hang out almost every night. It makes me miss my friends. I miss Alli a whole lot. I don't remember the last time I even got the chance to talk to her. I don't know what's going on in her life. How school is going or anything. Same with Katie. I have no idea how things are going with her and the baby. Yes, she did have the baby. I think I'm safe in posting that now that she's made two posts and posted pictures on Facebook. I'm so grateful for her pictures and blog posts.
Of course Katie is busy being a mom now. Alli and I have opposing schedules so that it makes it harder to find the time to communicate. Jamie too. I haven't seen or talked with her since the 4th of July. Still, it's not like I've reached out to them that much either. Playing video games isn't going to chance much of anything as neither Katie or Jamie play. I don't know if Alli plays anymore or what she plays. Not to mention that she's normally heading to bed when I'm getting out of work and at work while I'm not working. Some days, like today, I just really really miss them. I miss not living near them. Not seeing them everyday. Not being able to walk down the hall or wait until the next morning before class to catch up. Sometimes it just hits you hard and you're like, "wait. what happened? how is that I don't know what's going on with my closest friends? how did we lose touch so easily? do they just think I don't care?"
Maybe I have been too absorbed in my own life. My own problems and challenges and successes to even look up from myself and see the world around me. When did that self-absorption happen? Isn't that supposed to happen in adolescence? I'm a far cry from being a angsty teen but that's really what I've been like recently. It really is time to get over myself a bit. I do care about my friends. A lot. They come into my mind multiple times throughout the day but they'd never know it from my lack of communication with them. Odd, that feeling so much more connected to my husband today made me realize just how disconnected I am from all the other people I love dearly.
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