Fears

Thank you Hurricane Sandy for allowing me to take the day off of work.  Only three more work days to go. As my last day approaches, I'm excited but also really nervous.  I'm actually quite anxious.  I feel like I'm in a holding period.  I have things I want to do and begin but still need to wait four days to begin them.  This is giving me a whole lot of time to think about quitting, what I'm going to do while unemployed, and what is going to happen when I decide to go back to work.  Not to mention that I'm nervous about not being able to fulfill my last two weeks due to panic attacks or whatnot and not receiving the "yes, we'd hire her back" comment to potential future employers.  

There are so many "what if" worries jumping around in my brain and I can't help but be downright scared.  I know I've made the right decision by quitting.  I know that taking the time for myself to maybe figure out what I want to do before jumping into another dead end job is the right decision. It sort of feels the way going to college did back when I was in high school.  I knew that it was the right thing for me to do but I was downright terrified.  The unknown can be terrifying and yes, I'm feeling it.  So yeah, four more days.  I can do this and then I'll figure something out.  I just to remember college.  It didn't all make sense right away but it was definitely one of the best parts of my life.