Things one can't control

Guess who gets a lunch break that allows me to go on the computer and do my own thing for that time?  ME!!  I'm so excited though I still feel kind of wrong doing my own thing on a company computer but I was told that it was okay so, I get it is.  Anyway, seeing as today is one of my 14 hour days, I figured it would be nice to get this typed and posted so I don't have to do it later.

So today is my college ex-boyfriend's birthday and I was thinking I'd send him a Facebook message with a "Happy Birthday" message but I don't know if it's worth it.  I've sent him numerous messages congratulating him on his wedding and all other kinds but he never responds.  I guess there's is a small part of me that is sad about that.  We didn't work out as a couple and it feels like that means we can't be friends.  I can't tell him that I'm happy for him.  He can't reach out to me and be happy for me?  The last time we talked he indicated that he thought we hadn't ended well and he really wasn't interested in a friendship but it seems so childish.

I'm not looking to hang out with him on a daily basis but I would like to be on speaking terms at least.  I'd like to be able to say "Happy Birthday" or "Congratulations on your wedding"  without feeling weird about it.  From my point of view, things didn't end badly.  Sure we were both hurt by it but real, amicable breakups are rare.  I just don't feel like it was that horrible though I have to admit that I have a strange reference.  Maybe what I consider bad is far worse than what others do?   I guess to say I'm sad is an over-exaggeration as I'm not really sad, just disappointed by it.  We dated for three years, he was/is a good person, and it stinks that we can't be amicable on occasion. 

Ah well, there are things that you can control and things that you can't.  This, is one of those things that I can't control.  I can do my part but as in all relationships, friendship, romantic, or otherwise, two people need to contribute.  Speaking of things that make me unhappy that I can't control... snow? Already?  My doors were frozen shut this morning and it was freezing out.  Normally my rule is that I'm unhappy about it until I have my birthday which is November 23rd but it's October 28!!  Seriously! Snow, you're pretty and all but I fail to entertain your magic when you come this early in the year.  My goodness, I have a feeling it's going to be a very, very long winter this year.