Nervous

I have a job interview tomorrow and my excitement about working two jobs has turned into anxiety.  Of course, I'm nervous about the interview as well.  What if I'm not what they're looking for and I don't get the job?  It would be nice to expand myself beyond a call center customer service center and this job seems like it actually might be a decent job that will do that for me.  Plus, the job is in the same city that I live in which would be incredibly convenient.  Despite finding this position with a temp agency, it was described to be as an undefined length of time meaning that it could go for two months or it could be something permanent.  

That however, is both a positive and a negative.  In all honesty, I think that I'm more worried about actually getting the job.  It may not be a permanent position which would make me feel really uncomfortable leaving my current job.  In an ideal world I would work both as it would give me more job security and it would be a great way to earn extra cash.  With the goal of paying off a solid part of our debts, the extra cash would be really awesome.  However, I must state my largest concern: am I capable of sustaining two jobs and working 65 hours a week every week for an indefinite amount of time.  If it's just a two month deal, that would one thing but if it isn't.  My current job isn't the best and I've found myself complaining about it recently but I know that deep down, I have a good thing going right now.  I don't want to lose that.  

Of course, tomorrow it's just an interview so I'm totally getting ahead of myself but that's what I do.  I can't help it; I'm nervous.  There's that part of my brain that is in avoidance/self-preservation mode.  If I excuse myself out of the interview, then I won't have to deal with the rejection or the fear of actually getting the job.  I'm not going to excuse myself despite how intimidating it seems.  I would be too disappointment in myself for not going for it.  Even if I get the job, it doesn't mean I have to take the job.  Plus, I need the practice.  

I'll let you know how it goes.  As an aside, I did receive a text from Alli and she isn't made at me at all which should only go to prove how much I overreact to things.  Damn anxiety.