Pieces

The girls and I were talking at work about teaching.  Although I'm the only one with an actual degree in education two of my coworkers are looking to become early childhood teachers.  One has majored in psychology and is looking to teach young children.  She has a preschool license and works with children often.  Another one of my coworkers wants to eventually go back to school and open up her own daycare.  Of course, I know as much as anyone that teaching is severely underrated in what is required; however, both of my coworkers are more than willing to take the necessary classes needed to give the basic knowledge of classroom techniques, teaching, and management.  The more I've learned, the more I realized that you either have the skills, patience, and compassion or you don't.  Not everyone can teach though many people think they can.

Anyway, that was a very opinionated diatribe which some of you will probably disagree with but I'm okay with that.  Really, it was just nice to talk about the different learning styles.  Whole word reading versus phonics and things of that nature.  I miss those conversations.  I miss working with the kids and helping piece together words.  A very large part of me still wonders if I could do it.  I'd like to believe that I could and that it was just one terrible experience that discounted my confidence.  Either way though, my confidence was shattered and I'm still trying to pick up the pieces of my non-teaching self.  I don't have the strength to try and fix that along with everything else.

Speaking of working to piece myself back together again, I had another therapy session.  God, I look forward to the day when therapy isn't a weekly necessity and I can just drop by every month or so to analyze the my general feelings of past weeks.  All of this baggage gets heavy once in a while.  Nevertheless, we did stumble upon some really interesting issues today.  Issues are still affecting me way too much in the present day for me to feel comfortable discussing but they are things for me to thing about and percolate on.  I have another appointment scheduled for next week so hopefully I can do a lot of processing this week and make greater strides at the next session.  I just need to remind myself to be patient.