Work

Work dragged tonight.  The first hour went quickly but then it just slowed from there.  I found myself counting the hours early in the evening which is never good.  There wasn't anything different.  It wasn't overly busy or totally dead, just a little slow.  Honestly, there are too many people on schedule on Fridays.  I really wish I could take it off.  Unfortunately my boss thinks that the majority of us need to be working that day.  I don't know if she's afraid that we are more inclined to call in sick or ask for Fridays off so there are more of us than needed just in case.   I think a big part of me is just tired of working Friday nights.   At the moment though, I don't feel ready to demand it off or to find another job.  

Sometimes I wonder if I am allowing myself to get stuck.  I've been at this company for four years now and I really haven't grown professionally at all.  Of course, much of that is my choice, I guess.  I didn't look elsewhere using the terrible  job market as a convenient excuse to not even bother trying to find something different.  Also, I like the people if I don't like the job as a whole.   I'm afraid that I may find a job I like but truly dislike the people I'm working with.  A part of me fears that it's worse.  

My hope is that as I continue to get better psychologically I will find that strength to move on or at least ask for what I want at my current place.