Routines

I want to jump in the bath and relax.  Since I began listening to that book about habits I really want to try to create a nighttime routine or habit that will get me to sleep at a regular hour.  I can't keep going to bed at absurd hours and waking up in the early afternoon.   It will just end up depressing me.  Out of all my habits, this is one of the ones that would really like to cultivate.  So yeah, my habit is to come home from work, spend about an hour or so on the computer or talking with Dave before taking a hot bath while reading.  They say that taking a hot bath will help make you sleepier because it helps to lower your body temperature which is something that needs to happen to get to sleep.   Once out of the tub, I dry off and go directly to bed.  No computer and no phone (hopefully).   It worked last night but I was also super exhausted so I don't know if it counts. 

I made it again to work today and I really determined to not call in anymore.  I think it helps that I have a goal.  I want to ask for Fridays off.  I want to work a different schedule but I don't feel comfortable asking for anything since I've been crazy for the last few months calling in so often.  Really though I think the time has come for me to either get a new job or change the hours of my current one.  Because I'm paranoid I'm reluctant to go looking for something else right now.  There's that lingering "what if I can't handle life again" thought that creeps into my head.  I don't want to start a new job only to have to quit it because I start freaking out again.   I'll just have to see how it goes.  We'll see.